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Every time I sit down to write about this quilt, I am paralyzed with fear, slowed down by obstacles, and overflowing with rage borne from inhabiting this society as a person who is not a white man. The outline turns into a textbook about US history and persistent willful inequities, which is wearying and demoralizing.

It will be tone-policed. It will bring more invalidation. And I will die from containing the rage.

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I fear I will be told I don’t understand. I will be told that NOT ALL men do that. I will be told that ALL LIVES MATTER. I will be told where not to shop. I will be asked why I don’t make quilts about love. (Umm, I do.) I will be told to dress differently. I will be told to wear a nametag to garner respect. I will be told that things are much better now. I will be told to just let it go.

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Because I am told I don’t understand. I am told that NOT ALL men do that. I am told that ALL LIVES MATTER. I am told where not to shop. I am told not to make these quilts. I am told to dress differently. I am told to wear a nametag to garner respect. I am told that things are much better now. I am told to just let it go.

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You don’t understand. Men do that. Black lives matter. You shop where you like without commentary. No one tells you what not to make. You dress how you like. You don’t need a nametag to garner respect; you just show up. You don’t have to do anything to call yourself an ally.

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This quilt is a quiet scream. See how “i” recede into the background even as “i” declare an intent to march on.

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See you next time.

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The Details
Title: still not
Materials: vintage scraps from mid-century clothing, quilting cotton, denim, cotton sashiko thread
Techniques: improvisationally machine pieced, hand quilted, hand bound
Finished size: about 72″ square
Started: January 2019
Finished: June 2019

the splashing of the yarn…

In conjunction with my show in Easton, PA, I also coordinated a yarn bombing on the Karl Stirner Arts Trail. It’s a lovely natural trail along a main artery highway and a pretty creek in town. There are many outdoor sculptures to see and a textile installation by Rachel Hayes.

(Here’s a little stranded knitting I steeked up, to wet your whistle.)

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I scouted a short stretch of the trail with a row of newly planted trees whose skinny trunks could use a little bit of color. Here’s a video of our aftermath.

I gathered up a bunch of abandoned blanket projects, steeking some into smaller chunks. And I hooked up and knit a few more pieces. Even the garlands are made from crocheted hexagon bits.

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We put out a call for volunteers to just show up on a Saturday morning in July and help sew the bits onto the trees and guardrails. About 20 folks stopped by and lent a hand, including some adorable little kids.

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This last isolated tree blanket went up as I finished the hot morning. In this adjacent empty field now is a meditation labyrinth. This photo makes me pretty proud of the collaboration of all the artists on the trail.

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c

so…where were we?

When last we spoke, friends, we were talking about Love. And, you know, how love is love is love, you know, in quilt form. And RealLife was just about to implode on me and become much too much to handle.

And I shared some IG shots from my summer solo show in Easton, PA. It was a lovely time of sharing my work with my “home” community and getting to reveal myself a little more to folks who don’t really know me much. Hence, the title of the show was Cottoning On.

The gallery staff, Michiko Okaya, Jim Toia, Erica Hutchins, and Wendy Sterling, were the best partners on the install, managing the needs of visitors, arranging the coordinated events (opening reception, public lecture, and a yarn bombing (more on the yarn attack later)), and generally just being their amazing selves. There were many attempts to document the show and the events and lots of photos resulted. [Local photographers, Tom Kosa and Kevin Vogrin, get the main credits. The first two below are Kosa; the rest are Vogrin.]

Here’s a blast of photos. My favorite is seeing people interact with the work and respond to the lecture.

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More about this fresh freedom finish soon…

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Whew. It turned out okay.

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I’ll see you sooner next time.

Have a great weekend!

xo,
c

beating the yips

So I’ve seemingly abandoned this space for a while. It’s been a doozy of a summer, friends!

I’ll be back with a post-mortem on my show and all its trappings. But for now, you can see some installation views on the gallery website. Just scroll to the bottom and look in the photostream. There are some shots from the standing-room-only lecture too.

But here I’d like to share what has been a joy for me to see. Seeing how others view the show through their social media posts has opened my mind more to the aesthetic aspects of the show itself. You know, I’ve just buried my head in all those stitches and never really came up for air until, well, last week.

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To battle the inevitable mental yips that come after an experience like this, I decided just to play and just made a quilt in a week. Here are the shots and the deets.

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The Details

Title: beating the yips (?)
Materials: handdyed Osnaburg, voile, canvas, velvet, linen, silk, satin, sateen, wool knit, shirting, cotton lawn, gabardine, cotton jacquard, bark cloth, wool felt, monofilament thread, perle cotton
Techniques: machine pieced, hand appliquéd, hand quilted, hand bound
Finished size: 21 x 22”
Started: July 26, 2019
Finished: August 2, 2019